As this decade comes to an end...

I haven't even reminisced and I feel rushed like a wall is slowly closing in on me lol it's weird. Taking pictures is my goal for 2011 along with traveling. That's all I really care about and I want to do it all for me lol. 2010 will not be my favorite year or even one of my favorite years , I was way too depressed mot of the year there are many factors leading in to it but hopefully I'll feel better next year.

Good things come in small packages

Christmas was amazing for me except for the terrible fact that I have not gotten to eat any turkey potatoes gravy or stuffing!! but other than that it's been amazing. Spent boxing day shredding the mountains in Banff with the fam and enjoying most of my family haha. Got some new boarding gear and photography gear and can't believe it. Hopefully you had a great christmas and are making some new years resolutions I know I have a few jotted down already.

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check out a vid made by my brother, snowboarding in sunshine. My brother filmed it all well skiing but the footage is killer.

To wear extra sock in winter

My friend and I drove downtown and almost died (not really) because we were blinded by sunlight going over a bridge it was terrifying and hilarious hahaha. We looked for a parking spot for like 40 minutes and finally found one then froze our fingers and toes off takeing photos down on the bridge over the river. It's like 5 degrees colder there. Got some super awesome shots and had a lot of fun taking them my hands got so cold I couldn't even focus them sometimes though which sucks but oh well there are a lot more good then bad.

Just it done

I've had my room clean for about a week now and i love it, my room hasn't had a proper decent cleaning in probably 5 months. I've cleaned it in that time but not perfectly and i always just feel back into the old mess eventually. Since I'm not working or doing anything I cleaned it and organized and got rid of crap and it feels so much better.

The day always come to an end

Just as my mom and I came back to our car we saw a guy writing a ticket for our car but we got to him before he finished so we didn't end up getting one! close call though haha. I went downtown and checked out a couple of the grey cup partys and there are sooo many people mainly roughrider fans too haha it's madness. I'm painting and chilling in my room the rest of the night and going to hand out some resumes tomorrow.

you need some time to yourself

I spent around 5 hous in chapters books tore today, basically time well spent. I read books and took photos and drank starbucks and chilled in there. I read a post secret book and it was great...I almost cried reading a couple because I could relate. All I've eaten all day is a bear claw and a latte so I'm freaking hungry and I'm gonna go eeeaaat!

I just like this photo

This was taken a couple weeks ago wen I first got my D5000 and was playing with long exposures. I like how you can see a few stars in the sky just the sky in general

School never ends...

I had in car lessons and in class lessons for driving today so in total I had 5 hours of pure driving...knowledge it was alright though the time went by fast and was kinda fun. My last in class is over on wednesday so I'm happy I won't have to do that ever again. I have 3 more in car lessons though. I think I'm going to take some photos tomorrow maybe at the ledge but it's supposed to be around -31 tomorrow so I'm not totally sure yet haha. Other than that not much else I can rant on about.

The seasons all eventually come

It snowed last night and a bit this morning nothing really so i'm not complaining but its freeeeezing it's supposed to hit -30 sometime this week or next and continue like that for a while. Bummer. Improv class was a lot of fun last night and drivers ed was alright I need to start driving everyday though to really get some confidence, and learn how to change lanes without killing someone.

Friday night will always be...tame.

I had a super uneventful day when I should have been getting a shitload of stuff done. I went to a movie called RED and it was faaaaaantasstic!!!It was so funny i loved it, I want to buy it and own it and watch it well I sleep. I'm going to a hookah bar tomorrow night, no idea what that's going to be like soooo...I'm very interested in going haha

You'll learn not to eat before bed...

Last night I have wicked bad night terrors 2 times I woke up and was running though the house I guess. It sucked because I remember waking up screaming that someone dumped a pile of maggots on my bed and they were all over my sheets. I remember who it was like one of my close friends or my brother or something. I just remember that one and my mom said I woke up again and was screaming in the kitchen haha. Then I was dreaming I was in a jeep and in the backseat with 2 or 3 people that i didn't know and I was getting buckled up when I though what if I fell in to the river, and couldn't get out. so i unbuckled my self and the person driving flew into the river or ocean and I was trying to get out of the window but the person in the drivers seat wouldn't let me out and kept saying something like "your not getting out, your staying" and was running out of air, and that's when I woke up. It scared me so bad. I was told night terrors and sleep walking are caused by stress, and that could be true because I'm always stressed out over so much shit, but I don't know how to get rid of that. It's not always things I can stop. I ate a hot dog before bed though so i think that could be the problem too...I really hope so because that was one fucked up night of bad dreams.

Any way on a cute not here's a photo of my neighbors dog haha

I'll always be lost for words at the wrong time

Improv tonight was fun we had a different teacher who put out a totally different vibe and I loved it. It was more relaxed and a lot more fun than last weeks class. Drivers ed is a blast my next class is tomorrow and i'm excited for it.I'm super nervous about the driving portion though, I'm a very nervous driver. Hopefully all my in class sessions will prepare me for the road.

Things can always get fucked up

My cameras been broken for two months and I just got it back from getting fixed and in the process it got broken again.It's going to be gone for another 2 months probably. I spent about a month in Calgary chilling with family and drinking a lot it was pretty interesting and there really was never a moment where I could just chill and lay down and listen to my ipod or read a book it was always out and about doing something it was different and fun.I quit my job at starbucks and am going to start looking for a new one monday hopefully.I'm taking drivers ed and an improv class even though I'm poor as fuck I'm excited and happy to be doing both. I'm taking all my photos with my iPhone 4 and if i didn't have that I would cry and be all alone in my room hahaha not really(kinda) Anyways hopefully I'll be getting back into this thing cause it is kinda fun updating this for no one to read.

You never know what tomorrow holds for you

This is what it is up
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ViywOKfjlto

It's just me and my phone and what ever lame things I think of basically...

things just stop working

Im spending a shitload of money I shouldnt be I need to be saving I have barely 1000 saved up so for the rest of the month I'm not gonna spend shit.I still hate my boss....and that's about all.I'm tired and going to sleep.

you should go to sleep with a full tummy

I worked a short shift today went by pretty quickly pretty painlessly so can't complain.Then I went for supper with a friend and got a huge pasta and only ate like 1/4 of it so now i ahve supper for tomorrow too haha.I have tomorrow off and am going to make the most of it.Going to sleep in than meet up with a friend go eat get ice cream and walk around enjoying the beautiful weather! Than I work all weekend :/ but there decent shifts so I'll try not to complain too much.

Some people just dont change

Still hate my job.Still going strong on my 365.Still bipolar wether.

Still truckin' : )

That photo is from a few days ago but I love it so I had to post it here too haha

It's tough to keep believing

I got two new pairs of shoes today I love them so much haha.I haven't bought new shoes since last year in like....June? So over a year now.I've gotta work tomorrow and I'm alright with that but other things are bothering me right now.I need to figure out how to be content longer than a few days.So yeah I'm just ....bluhhhh

Having fun isn't an option

I came home from work at 7 and now I work at 6:30 tomorrow morning...FUCK! I wanted to have a little bit of fun tonight I haven't been able to get out for so long.I'm getting stressed over work and relationships with people.I only get saturday off and than I'm back to work for 5 days in a row.I'm not able to have any kind fo life with this job and it's getting reciulously irratating.I'm having to act like 30 yearold wrather than 18...my mom is even complaining that I'm nto getting out and having fun so you know it;s bad haha. I'm going to start looking for a new job this month maybe with the city...if not my fail safe is rogers video lol.The managment there has to be better than at Stabucks hell it should be better anywhere!
OH HAPPY CANADA DAY!!!! :D

Still going strong with my 365 :D

Sometimes you might not have the time

HOLY HELL! Been keeping busy?Well I sure have totally got lazy on filling the bloggidty out.I work like a mad man(I say mad man because it sounds better than better girl) this week I'm only happy because of the pay check I'll get next week.I'm the only one pulling my load at work everyone else half asses it and leaves at random times just to get away.I'm exhausted and only get sunday off after a 38 hour week...bummmmer!! So right now I'm not too happy...talk to me when I get paid I'll be singing a different tune than maybe haha.

Oh yeah I burnt my hand on friday and it hurt like a bitch I had to work from 9-3 with a totally useless hand and it was not fun.There's a huge burn mark from where it happened and it looks like I got beat...in my hand? haha

The picture I put up is an alternate to my 365

Veg out and watch t.v.

I've got the day off tomorrow and I am so happy because I really need to sleep in haha.I have no plans so Im just going to sleep,sleep,eat,watch movies,and go for a bike ride.Awesome? YEAHHHH! haha.Work has been so agravating because of someone I always work with but it was a ton of fun because I worked with my fave person to work with,Jenna.She's a load of fun haha.She made it bearable, and only that.Getting my savings bigger and bigger OH OH OH AND GUESS WHAT?I'm not even going to let you guess because we're on the computer BUT ........I GOT A APPROVED FOR A MASTERCARD! HAHAHA WOOOOOOO! I'm so impressed with myself lol. Anyways gotta go chill out and sleep.

you just crack under the pressure

Do you know that feeling of complete misery day after day? It sucks.

Just pop open a tub of icecream

It's been so beautiful today and now it's starting to get windy and overcast adn supposed to thunder and lightning tonight...BUMMER!I hate lightning it scares the hell outa me call em childish but it does.I don't like stepping foot outside when there's a lightning storm.I got a little bummed that weather vhanged so i got a couple scoops of icecream and some cookies :D haha cheered me right up.This weekend is going to be very boring and uneventfull...but none the less relaxing, which I'm alright with.My 365 project is ging well and when I'm alwasy trying to think up new ideas but usually just think one up on the spot taking a picture haha.

The sun will always set

Work was long I'm growing more and more impatient of my boss each day.On a good note though I might only have to pay around $500 to fly round trip to London! WOOOOOH! that takes a load of stress of me :) and I'lll be getting a mastercard!I'm going to the bank to talk about it tomrrow and see how everything turns out hopefully very good.I only work 4 hours tomorrow so it'll be a great day.The sunset was
a m a z i n g I got to it late though because of traffic so it doesn't look as good as it was.Another day though!

I feel the same way

Work is such a pain in my ass.I really shouldn't complain because I have it so easy, but my boss is just such a terrible person to work with.If her personality was a little bit more go with the flow everyone at work would be so much happier and the atmosphere would be a lot more relaxed and positive.I hope to go if I ever become peoples boss I do not give off the kind of vibe she does.Other than that though life is nice haha.Drove my scooter around for a while and just cruised through this nice weather today and took a little walk in the river valley.Pay day tomorrow and I'll have about 400 saved up to go to the u.k.! not much but I'm getting it started.I've left my wallet at home when I go to work purposely so I don't spend money on food...it adds up.Thanks for reading how's your life been?

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Make it different form the rest

I had a couple photos taken for todays 365 but they were so consistant with my 365 I wanted to change it up and make it interesting.I saw my boom box and grabbed it and took a little walk found a good lookin fence and satred shooting.I like the results very much :D. Kinda old school looking which is what I was going for but I didn't really dress up for it to the T.Next time I have this baby in my photo(which believe me I wil!) I''' go the whole 9 yards for it :).Today was an easy going fun day but still felt like work haha it was decent though.Breaking bad finale was AWESOME the final shot is going to make me wonder whats going on every day until I see the next season premiere lol.They did awesommmme! Anywho I'm sleepy so I'm gonna go relax watch some tv and hit the hay for tomorrow's another day!

A little work goes a long way

I'm still sick I woke up yesterday with a soar throat and have been drinking green tea with lemon and honey ever since.Hasn't helped much untill just now haha.Work was exhausting I had a pounding head ache soar throat and plugged nose plugged nose.I took a picture for my 365 before I left work as a back up plan incase I just passed out as soon as I got home.I saw the sun setting sooo nicely and wanted to get a photo but once I got home it was basically set.I couldn't take no for an answer though and KNEW i could get a better photo than what I previously had tkaen.So I hopped on my little scooter and put the petal to the metal to the downtown lookout point by my house.I got the last little bit of sun before it set...and I'm very happy with it! hahaha.I'm going to fall asleep and wakeup feeling much better(I hope!) because tomorrows a big day ;) Got some special plans...planned haha you'll see what i mean tomorrow! : D

you always get something accomplished

I woke up with a soar throat today...BOOOOO i hate them so much and i don't like saying I hate something...but for this I amke an acception.I also remembered it was my first week of my 365 project accomplished with very little creative problems haha YAY! I had today off too so I got a chai latte (for free wooo!) and walked towards downtown and took some great pictures for my 365 and I'm super happy with todays pic!!It was so nice out today a little overcast and rainy throught out but warm and perfect hahaha.After that we rented shutter island and it was great!! I loved the whole thing.I work tomorrow at 3:30 so i don't have to worry about sleeping in lol.

www.flickr.com/photos/zuhbrenuh

Moe money=moe problems

I got offered the position of assistant manager today!More hours more monney so I might just be able to get to the u.k. by september...if I budget well enough haha.HOPEFULLY THOUGH!Anyways awesome day at work and afterwords I just releaxed got some cd's from the library so I'm downloading it on to my computer right now and chillin out. Tomorrow I work all day but with good people so I don't mind :). My 365 is going very well even though I'm only 5 days in I feel good and very motivated.I wish you could bottle how you feel at certain times so you can remember exactly how you felt at one point to keep you going...lol.yeahhhh.

Here's todays 365 photo :) here's my flickr account also www.flickr.com/photos/zuhbrenuh

Even if you don't think so, you learn something new each day.

I'm getting the hang of my wide angle and falling more inlove with it by the picture.I was dissapointed with it when I first got it but then found a website that REALLY helped.Here's the link If you need a lil help figuring out a wide angle lens:http://www.kenrockwell.com/tech/how-to-use-ultra-wide-lenses.htm

It helped already and i've only had it one night haha.It's so nice outside i've been taking pictures and eating outside all day. Gotta get back before the nice weather says goodbye for a while!
P.S. If you have flickr or just wanna check out my photos here's the link add me if you have it! :D
www.flickr.com/people/zuhbrenuh/

I can always smile

I bought another lens today! tamaron 10-24mm it's a wide angle it's pretty sweet gotta play with it more and figure everything out.I also bought a new hat, I like it a lot and have wanted one like it for ...about a month and I finally found the perfect one haha.Gonna enjoi the rest of today and tomorrow and then back to work.I spent most of my money this weekend so I'm not even gonna complain about going to work this week or next haha.

Just do what makes you happy

Sooooo today I went to the ortho and found out I get my braces off August 19th...!!!!! YAY! :D.I'm so happy to finally know a date and see light at the end of the tunnel haha.After that I went to a camera store and bought myself a little treat a 50mm lens *drool* I need to get used to it but so far it is incredibley b e a utiful.I'm going to another camera store tomorrow and might buy a wide angle lens yumm haha.I'm unsure about going to uni this fall I might hold off untill next year so I can build my portfolio up and save up some money.Here's a pic from my new nifffty fiffty though :)

OHH OH OH I also started my 365 project today! I'm pumped and I really think I'm gonna be able to go through with it! Wish me luck : )

Canada's climate will always surprise you...

Yes it snowed today.May 29th 2010 after raining the majority of the day...it fucking snowed.I'm not that bummed though because I had no plans to be outside today so it was just surprising to see snow...when it's so close to summer.That's what I get for living in shit hole Edmonton though lol no offence to edmontonians that are inlove with this city.So yeah that's basically the biggest thing to happen today...and I saw It's Complicated.......freaking awesome.

There will always be a reason to smile

Went for a two hour walk with my best friend and my dog I got a couple shots of stuff.It's been overcast and rainy all day but i don't mind really it's soothing.I've attempted the 365 project about 3 times...and failed all 3 but I'm still contomplaiting doing nother.I would love to actually go through and accomplish the entire thing but it's tougher than you'd think....it's fucking stupid that's it hard.I'll have to think about it for a while.I have to get a portfolio together for uni so it would probably help.Anyways I want t get to bed and sleep in to atleast 10 and go to the library maybe get a couple photos taken/developed.It's so insane that it's almost JUNE! wow....the days are going by fast.

There will always be ice cream

Yesterday i had a shift from 10:30-7.....ASS.I hate that shift i prefer to wake up early and get off when i feel like I can still make something of my day, with that though...you aint got shit to do haha.When I got off though I found out my tire on my bike is popped so I have to get a new one which is a bummer cause it's m ore cash to spend.Then i took a little walk with my mom and got ice cream and chocolotte bars.I found the most amazing ice cream sandwich if you ever see it..BUY IT! it is so good, made my day :D lol.Instead of chocolotte coating or whatever it is it has a chocolote chip cookie on each side and ice cream in the middle...wow.here's a pic enjoi! :D:D

You can hope for the better

I spent my long weekend down at my aunt and uncles I had fun for some of it.I was the only young kid there so I spent the whole time by myself...which isn't too fun.The place is fun to explore and great to take pictures at though haha.I went for a bike ride on the first day and took some photos.It was nice relaxing and fun.We came home Sunday and I worked on monday which was great because I made time and a half! so like $120 in one day...yay! haha.Then after work I got my cell phone hooked up, and I haven't had a cell in about a year I'm really not happy I got one. My friends all forced me to get one because it was "so hard to get a hold of me".I got one though and like I said waste of money basically. lol anywasy enough of the ranting I work until thursday and then have another 3 day weekend...woo! Well enough out of me here's a photo from my bike ride in drumheller :)

To my one follower:You are awesome for whatever reason you took an interest in this blog I'll try and keep it up! :D

You can let them eat cake!

Sooo on sunday...that was fun.I met up with my friend at about 5 and we went out to the woods and took some shots it was awesome and a last.The weather has been so hot like 30 the past few days it's been nice.So after we took photos our friend picked us up and we went to my other friends house and ate food and talked for awhile.Then we went drove tot the store and bought donuts and cheescake(!) so good. We talked untill about 1:30 and I got home at 2 am.I was locked out had to wake up my mom and get in.Got to bed and had to wake up at 6....not fun.I wored untill 3 then today i worked at 8 and got to bed at about 1.So I'm beat and exhausted and so hot lol.I had fun though and I'm happy so that's what matters. here's a few pics from the woods

You can finally relax.

I got the weekend off and fell asleep at 5 pm and woke up at 10...wasted my frieday but I'm alright with that cause i was exhausted and in pain.Went to whyte ave with my mom today because it is b e a utiful out! walked out side and got a frap,new sunglasses and a hat(yayyy).Then we walked to save on and I got a cupcake(!) it was so good.Gonna relax the rest of the day and go see iron man 2 with some friends.I haven't seen the first one but I assume iron man is just gonna try and kill a bad guy?So it'll be a good time.

The wieght will be lifted.

I applied for university today.HUGE for me. I never thought I would go to university but I know that it's right for me and I want to go more than anything because it will pay off and make my life better in a million ways.I'm really hoping I get excepted! holy jeeze.I woke up at 6 today......im beat.Work was good though better than I thought.Took some photos and had a frap. I feel good about today for some reason, because I got a huge thing accomplished...um yes! :D

Your still unfit.

My friend and I climbed the stairs out of the ravine.I am really,really unfit. I'm not at the point where im breathing really hard but, I'm at the point where I feel i should stop eating burgers.I don't have the self control to do that, so I'm in a pickle.Awesome day though it hasn't been nice in weeks, please stay this way.

Everything has the same feel.

Everything in my life has the same feel to it, I hate it.I want some change fast but nothing will for a while. I have to work for the change and that takes time, and money...lots of money. Life feels bland and it feels like im wasting it away everyday even when i do as much as I can. The days when i feel are a success are when i laugh. Comedy makes my life feel worth it, i like it. I love that what makes my life worth living is something universal something that everyone can understand. It can be repeated for years or just made up on the spot and it will still make people laugh. I love that about comedy and I want to be involved in some small part in it. That's what my change is going to be, to get my life to feel like a sucess Everyday by doing my job. That sounds pretty great to me.It might not happen quickly once i start but eventually I'll branch off into bigger and better things.

This is life.this is only life.

This is my savings.I'm going to leave canada and see some more of the world.I'm working at starbucks and want to put all my money into this trip...but i forgot how nice it is to buy things.So i need to develop a lot more self-control.I want this trip so bad,much more than i do new clothes and yet i buy new clothes.So very soon all my money WILL be going in to savings HOPEFULLY buy next paycheck because tomorrows pay is going to my mom and mothers day presents for her and my lovely gramma.OH and welcome to my own little piece of the internet.Stick around and you'll read things about me that you never knew!